Disjointed
I feel bad. It's as simple as that. The game I bought yesterday was disappointing in many aspects. It's a good game, but I was expecting something completely different; something more than it actaully is. I've been left with a bitter taste in my mouth. But who knows? It could get better as I play. But I don't want to be wasting time on something I don't care about. We'll see.
Should depression be treated as an enemy, or can it be embraced? Both paths could lead to good places. I just seem to find myself on the side of embracement more than the other. Embracement and acceptance.
Yet I still feel bad, but if every artist/hero I've come to respect and love didn't have bad feeling, probably similar to the ones I have, then I wouldn't have all of the wonderful inspiration in my life right now. Right this very instant. I can think of a million messages in a million songs (overexaggerating, I know) that bring my mind and heart up out of the gutter. That's what I want to do, to write, to inspire, to create.